Well, can you believe it has already been a year since our little baby was born? I can't get over how amazing babies are. They are born as helpless, nearly sightless, hungry little lumps. They can't control their limbs, they can't feed themselves, reach things that they want, or convey their needs any other way but through crying. Slowly they learn to smile, to laugh, to control those flailing limbs. They figure out how to roll from front to back and back to front. They learn the "pincer grasp" and how to sit on their round little bottoms. Crawling gives them freedom, and they suddenly can get the things they want and manipulate them with fingers that actually do what they want them to do. They start to communicate, delighting when people around them actually understand what they are trying to say. Finally, they stand, and eventually take those first tentative steps....all in a few short months. Amazing.
Rowan celebrated his first birthday in style. We had a nice little gathering of family and close friends, enjoying delicious pizza provided by Gramma and Grampy. I made him his own little cake, which he enjoyed destroying with his fork. Some might have even made it into his tummy.
A pile of presents were stacked on the coffee table and he was so happy to realize that they were all for him! (With the exception of a few small gifts for Big Sister, who was very good the entire day!) He ripped and tore, and explored the toys and especially the boxes that they came in.
Finally, the day was done and everyone was glad to get to bed.
I finally captured a bit of Rowan's walking on video. He walks around the house all the time, but for some reason, I never have the camera nearby when he does it. It won't be long before he can walk for real, and I can stop carrying his heavy little butt around!
This birthday is particularly sweet for many reasons. One year ago our sweet baby boy came into the world, and our lives were turned upside down by the nightmare of postpartum anxiety. I can't even begin to describe how awful some of those days and nights were, as we waited desperately for the hormones to subside. Despite feeling terrible for many months, we tried to delight in Rowan's precious infancy as much as possible, although I must admit that in the throws of anxiety, I fear I missed out on many opportunities to cherish those moments that I will never get back. During those trying times, I leaned heavily on my awesome husband, without whom I'm not sure I could have gotten back on my feet. I also learned to lean on God, and that no matter how difficult life becomes, He is always by my side. The important thing is that we survived, and thrived, and I am so very thankful for my precious children!
I am a little sad that this is the last time we will celebrate one of our children turning one year old, but then I think about midnight feedings, and 12 diaper days, and colic, and rocking for hours, and bottles, and the infant carrier, and I am thankful that Rowan is leaving infancy and becoming a little boy. Besides, there will always be babies that need a little snuggle while mama takes a much needed break!
So here's to another great year of firsts! I can't wait to share them with our family and friends!!





